Lauren Fonvielle, Writer & Lightworker
One foot in front of the other…
This weekend was our last big hoorah as a family. Jeremy flies to Bahrain in a week.
The kids and I drove up to NY to meet up with Jeremy at my parents house for the weekend. It was so good to all be together again. It had only been a few weeks since our last visit, but for some reason it really felt like forever. The kids were thrilled to see Daddy, wrestle with him, make silly jokes, and simply just spend time together.
It’s the small blessings of time together as a family that we all too often take for granted. I cherished every moment this weekend. I was truly present, and soaked it all in – the giggles, the smiles, the shrieks, all of it.
Jeremy and I were excited to be able to attend the annual Shea Halloween festivities. It had been a few years since we were able to make it, so this was extra special. Jeremy picked out our costumes – I must say he did a good job. Who knew he’d look so good in tights? It was a great time, and some much needed fun for the two of us.
Sunday arrived faster than either of us wanted it to. We spent the day with the kids just lounging around, relaxing, doing our best to pretend our worlds aren’t about to be turned upside down. Jeremy and I took our 3rd and hopefully last EVER pre-deployment pic of our life times. If this photo doesn’t sum up how we are both feeling, nothing will.
The drive home was rough. I cried. Ava cried because she saw me crying. And Brody, well he just entertained himself on the Ipad. That thing is a blessing and a curse all in one. I don’t think the kids really understand everything that is going on. We’ve been completely open and honest with them since day 1, but it’s a lot for a 5 and 7 year old to wrap their heads around. They say they understand, but grasping the concept of time is so difficult. Maybe that’s for the best.
One day at a time is all I can muster up right now. And that’s okay. We are moving forward, slowly. The rational side of me knows that the days will quickly turn to weeks, and weeks into months. The emotional side of me just sobs that a year feels like an eternity. Hopefully these two battling sides of my brain will meet somewhere in the middle and we’ll get through this deployment with grace and ease.
I just keep reminding myself every morning that we are one day closer to putting this all behind us.
“How lucky am I to have something that makes saying good-bye so hard.” – Winnie the Pooh
Hug your families tight tonight and enjoy trick-or-treating with your little ones.
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