One day at a time, one foot in front of the other…
Yesterday was tough. We dropped Jeremy off at the airport in the morning. I thought I had cried all my tears during the week. I was wrong. After a bunch of hugs and kisses, we made our way back home and I collapsed on the couch. The exhaustion of all the deployment prepping, the first week of school, and the overwhelming slew of emotions stirring within, had my body screaming for a nap. Brody must’ve felt the same way because we both ended up taking a nice long snooze on the couch. I’ll happily take all the snuggles I can get from my sweet boy. I know one day, in the not too distant future, he’ll be rolling his eyes when I ask him to snuggle.
In the evening, as I got the kids ready for bed, I asked Ava to grab a book for us to read. I’d never seen this book before, which I found very odd, because we’ve read every kid’s book on the bookshelf. I’m still perplexed as to where it came from. But, as soon Brody started reading, I immediately thought this is not a coincidence. It is a sign. It is a wink from Nanny.
After an extra emotional day, the words in this book were exactly what I needed to hear. The book, I Knew You Could, by Craig Dorfman, is about a train. It plays a bit off of The Little Engine That Could. It’s a story about an older train, sharing his life lessons with a new a train. It talks about how he has to pick the best track to take, how sometimes you may start on one track, but later find yourself choosing a different track. But what’s really important is enjoying the sights along the way. Sometimes you go through dark tunnels, and you may be sad or scared, but before long there will be light at the end of the tunnel, and the next thing you know you’ll be out, heading somewhere new and exciting. And on those days where you simply feel you can’t go any further, you need to reach out to a friend and ask for a tow. And when your belief in yourself starts to waiver, it’s time to push harder and give it all you’ve got. But at the same time, speeding through your trip will only bring you sorrow so remember to slow down, rest and be happy tomorrow.
It’s a fabulous little book about having faith, working hard, and knowing that you are exactly where you are supposed to be in this moment in time. As we turned to the last page of the book, I couldn’t help but smile when I saw the picture of the train riding towards a rainbow. It was Nanny’s way of telling me everything is going to be okay.
This year may not be easy, and it may not be quick, but if I continue to tell myself, “I think, I can!” I most definitely will!